Hanging on to my last semester of college has been a bit of a paradox.
It's basically wanting change not to happen.
I enjoy where I'm at and change is frightening because my next move is uncertain.
The newsroom is awesome. I finally have friends and know people when at school. There were so many semesters in the past when I'd talk to only a few people each day.
It's weird cuz I never thought it'd be hard to say goodbye to school. I classified it as a necessary nuisance that would eventually come to an end and when that day came it'd be "party time."
Now, I'm hit so often with "what are you gonna do after you graduate?" that the opposite seems true. This is "party time." Post graduation: work time.
Not for me though. I know that. Well, I'm convincing myself of this as I write now. I don't wanna grow up (ha). I mean I don't want to enter the work force right away. There's a path I'm on now: a spiritual one. With purpose and a whole mess of other great qualities that I'm developing. I think I know how to attain this "great place." Being self-dependent is liberating and gives one a sense of assuredness and confidence, that hey, i can do this. I can navigate this crazy life, this crazy world.
I'm now the rock I always wanted to be. Now (to finish with something aspiring to sound profound) it's time to watch the climate mold me into what I'm meant to become.
